Jealousy

Jealousy, Wow! I know it is wrong to be jealous of other people and just because one person has something or gets to do something I don't, is no reason to be jealous. At times I feel it creeping in and I really try to pray about it and control those feelings. I know just because a person has this quality in their life does not mean they are not going through something in there own in life. I try to be grateful for all the good in my life, but sometimes, just sometimes I wish I had or could do something exciting. maybe my presumption of exciting is warped. I'm just not sure but I know I struggle with this, just saying.

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Feeling A little Mental

I'm not even sure how to explain my feelings these days. I can't quite put my finger on what is going on with me, mid-life, pre- menopause dang I just don't know!
I don't feel very happy and it seems that nothing satisfies me. Not that I'm asking for fame and glory, but damn!
I am taking a summer class, I go back to work for the summer starting Tuesday, and I have numerous things to accomplish for my fall term, that needs to be taken care of now. I don't feel overwhelmed with all of this, and maybe the bored feeling I have will go away once all of this falls into action. I just don't know!
I find myself over eating and eating because I feel comfort in doing so, then I get sad because I weigh more now than I ever have in my entire life. I don't like my looks in pictures and oh no don't even set me in front of a mirror naked!
I wish my hubby would pay more attention to me, but he has his friends and they seem to be more important to him. He just goes and does his own thing and here I sit like right now, trying to put my feelings into words on my blog.......................blah!