I have been struggling with myself for sometime now. I have been eating way to much and not the right kinds of foods. Ya see I'm a stress eater and my schooling, mostly math has been a big stress factor in my life. I stop on the way to school and grab something fast and eat it on the way to school. Not only that I get a candy or something sweet to go along with it. I feel shame when I do this, and it feels uncontrollable, I need to learn self control, as I'm feeling like my weight is spinning out of control quickly. I feel like one of those closet eaters that hide to get satisfied.
I don't like to look at myself in the mirror, and when I do it almost makes me cry. I feel like I have screwed up my body and don't really like my husband to even touch me. He does and I feel embarrassed that I'm not that woman he married. Yes I do know time changes us all, and age does a little trick to us. But dang!
Then Sunday with the kids here we got on the subject of weight for some reason, and hubby proudly says he's the lightest one in the house. He didn't mean it in a slam to me in anyway, but damn that stung!!!!
I have prayed on this matter and asked for help, but how can God help you if you can't control yourself. I feel like a food attic, I weigh more than I have ever in my life, even being 9 month pregnant.